heart skipped a beat

ph. Hollie Fernando

I seriously hate crushing. I'm not talking about the normal "oh he's cute, I wouldn't mind dating him" sort of thing. I am talking about when you let your guard down and you find yourself truly liking this person. Then you have racing thoughts like "what if I'm not pretty enough or not his type", "what if I am not clever enough", "well I bet he has girlfriend anyways, so why bother) etc, etc.

The current crush I have is rather complicated but when are crushes not complicated.

I just wish I knew what was going on inside that head of his.

Whatever, I need to stop thinking about this and him. At least I can say I tried...

Always wanting what I can't have. Story of my life.

I can't believe I've turned into THAT girl. So depressing. I may as well be sitting in my underwear on the couch eating ice cream from the tub and watching 'Love Actually'.

I can't wait to getting back to being one of the guys in less than two weeks. All my babies are coming in town at once (Darker My Love, Delta Spirit, and Jake!). It's like Christmas has come early. We are going to go into a whiskey coma and invade the photobooth at The Jackpot in Lawrence. I love that venue.

Can't. Wait.

it's overwhelming how much i hate everything

ph. Lia Schryver

I hate how much I've started to like you.

I hate how you don't know this by now.

I hate how we never have a proper conversation.

I hate that you are so gorgeous and every girl wants you.

I hate how I can never have you because it'll never work.

All I want to do is hang around and drink whiskey with you.

i wanted to be with you alone, and talk about the weather

You can't even deny the fact that Tears For Fears had some catchy ass songs back in the 80s. This song is perfect and epitomizes most of the crushes I've ever had...

"Head Over Heels" - Tears For Fears

and on the other end of the spectrum we have Fiona Apple, who I can't get enough of lately.

"Paper Bag" - Fiona Apple

"I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb, looking for a little hope."

For more on crushes and heartache, go to my lovely friend Malia, Hooray For Heartache blog.