grew up at midnight pt. 1

Happy New Year's Eve, everyone. I decided to resurrect my NYE/New Years Day questionnaire I did a couple years back. Click here to see 2010/2011. 

Part one starting now! 

Also, look forward to a playlist I'll be posting later this evening with a combination of everyone's selections and a few of my own. 

xx

P

Tiffany

Your current location?

STL, MO

Where/how will you be spending NYE (bar, club, friends house, etc)?

A house party and then my man's band has a show later, later.

What is the one song that really gets you ready to go out?

Mr. Cheeks - Lights, Camera, Action

What is your biggest guilty pleasure song of 2012?

Mykki Blanco's Waavy and Miguel's Adorn -- although, I feel guilty about neither.

What are your going out essentials?

A good attitude. If you've been sipping on the hateraid -- stay home.

What is the one song that always gets you on the dancefloor?

Big Pun - Still Not a Player

  

What would you spin if you were the dj?

Big Freedia

What drink will you be holding throughout the night?

Jameson - neat or champagne.

Who do you wish you could kiss at midnight (celebrity or non)?

Oh, he'll be there.

What do you do after the party (go to another location, go home and crash)?

I'm 30. I go home.

Your hangover cure?

Blues City Deli or Southwest Diner

What are you looking forward to most in 2013?

Spending two weeks in a jungle hut in Guatemala.

Tori

 Your current location:

Kansas City, MO

Where/how will you be spending NYE (bar, club, friends house, etc)?

Friend's house.    

What is the one song that really gets you ready to go out?

Primadonna by Marina and the Diamonds

What is your biggest guilty pleasure song of 2012?

Crazy Kids by Ke$ha and I knew you were trouble by Taylor Swift

 What are your going out essentials?

Stila lip stain 

What is the one song that always gets you on the dancefloor?

Dancing On My Own by Robyn

What would you spin if you were the dj?

Hall & Oates, most definitely.

What drink will you be holding throughout the night?

Strongbow and cheap beer.

Who do you wish you could kiss at midnight (celebrity or non)?

Harry fucking Styles.

What do you do after the party (go to another location, go home and crash)?

Going home and passing out.

Your hangover cure?

A mix of Taco Bell, Ibuprofen, self loathing, and sleep.

What are you looking forward to most in 2013?

Traveling and seeing friends I haven't seen in awhile.

Natalie 

Your current location: 

Midwest

Where/how will you be spending NYE (bar, club, friends house, etc)?

Paris in my dreams, home in reality.

What is the one song that really gets you ready to go out?

"head over heels" -the go-go's and "hold tight" -dave, dee, dozy, beaky, mick, & titch

What is your biggest guilty pleasure song of 2012?

"coke ain't a bad word" -lil poopy

What are your going out essentials?

fully charged cell phone, ID, cash for the photo booth, my 'bitch' face, my 'having fun' face (just in case), gum/mints

What is the one song that always gets you on the dancefloor?

"kiss me deadly" -lita ford and "20th century boy" -t.rex

What would you spin if you were the dj?

"all 4 love" -color me badd and too much madonna
I'd probably throw the family matters theme song in somewhere.

What drink will you be holding throughout the night?

Water, but i haaaave to be cool, so i'll pour it in a red cup to camouflage.  champagne at midnight.

Who do you wish you could kiss at midnight (celebrity or non)?

Matthew Gray Gubler! call me.

What do you do after the party (go to another location, go home and crash)?

According to the bible (R Kelly), one is supposed to visit the hotel lobby post party, but I always head home and have a snack, OR buy a snack and head home.

Your hangover cure?If i'm not on my deathbed and must go to work: a 6" from subway with chips, followed by a water chugging contest with myself while reapplying chapstick like it's a drug.

What are you looking forward to most in 2013?

New schemes & adventures…and Leslie Knope & Ben Wyatt's wedding 

Alexis

Your current location:

Kansas

Where/how will you be spending NYE (bar, club, friends house, etc)?

I will be inviting in the new year at my house with an old love, a good friend, and sleeping babies. 

What is the one song that really gets you ready to go out?

Jack White, Cults and The Black Keys put me in the mood while I get ready.

What is your biggest guilty pleasure song of 2012?

Alicia Key's Girl On Fire

What are your going out essentials?

An outfit I can dance properly in, excitement, the right friends!

What is the one song that always gets you on the dancefloor?

Flight Facilities- Crave You will make me jump on the dance floor in a second.

What would you spin if you were the dj?

If I were a DJ I would play from all genres (stuck on Doo Wop right now) and read the crowd. I feel a lot of DJs play for themselves more than the people.

What drink will you be holding throughout the night?

 I don't hold drinks--too busy dancing! I'd sip on something fruity when I catch my breath

Who do you wish you could kiss at midnight (celebrity or non)?

I would kiss James Franco on New Years-. He's talented and has wonderful comedic timing. 

What do you do after the party (go to another location, go home and crash)?

Home

Your hangover cure?

Go home and fall into bed from muscle failure after it all. 

What are you looking forward to most in 2013?

I HUGE plans for 2013!! Sewing, some modeling, and starting my own site

part 2 soon!! 

l'amour

 I aspire to look this amazing and and effortlessly badass when I'm older. Françoise Hardy = love.

i only smile in the dark

(this photo was taken on a completely different day than the previous post.)

Sometimes I feel like Doug Funny. I wear a variation of the same thing everyday as of late because I am too lazy to think of outfits nor have I've been really buying too many clothes (I know, right?). And how can you go wrong with a black skinnies, a leather jacket and a top? Sometimes I like to get wild and wear my peacoat and/or throw on a scarf like pictured. 

This photo somehow fits the way I've been feeling and the music I've been listening to lately. Going through a major Sonic Youth, Sleater-Kinney and Garbage phase (a post about how Dum Dum Girls and myself met Shirley Manson back in August shall be posted soon!). I was definitely meant to be a teenager during the 90s. 

this song, well Sleater-Kinney in general, always gets me jumping around. Janet  fucking Weiss just killing it on the drums.

this song causes some serious hair whipping, whether in the car or around the house. Come on, just read the listen and read the lyrics and tell me this is the best song to listen to as you drive to work or school or wherever. Basically one of the best "FUCK YEAH!" songs.

and to conclude with a little Sonic Youth. 

Slacking on the outfit posts. I have them, I just forget to post them. Here is a moody one from Christmas Eve as I ran around playing Santa. Note the sexy bags under my eyes. That took some WORK. Working 60 hours a week is super fun. Can't wait until the holidays are OFFICIALLY over and I have somewhat of a life back. And by having somewhat of a life back, I mean locking myself in my room and watching Beverly Hills 90210 until I can no longer stand it. Which I am guessing as I enter the 7th season...I mean I have to see when Kelly gets addicted to drugs! 

Beanie - H&M men's department

Leather jacket - Target

Hoodie - American Apparel 

Tank - Topshop

Necklace - f21

Skinnies - Urban Outfitters

Boots - ALDO

oh mein m

I have A LOT of photos from over the summer that I have yet to share from my time of being an "honorary Dum Dum Girl" as Miss Malia put's it. 

I was a long-time fan before being lucky enough to finally see them live back in Febuary, but after spending time with them and them not only allowing me to photograph them live but trusting me enough to photograph them behind the scenes and tag along on some of their adventures, I went back home having three new heroes (if you have been reading my blog or know me in real life, you already know my relationship with Malia, therefore she was already a hero/mentor/friend before she joined the band to me). These girls make me want to practice my instruments more and start a band myself. If only I weren't so lazy! My drum kit whimpers in the garage from neglect. 

Here are some photos of the girls getting ready before a Chicago gig and photos that might be included on a series I am currently working on. 

Enjoy! 

xoxo

P

keep the change you filthy animal

SO MUCH LOVE FOR THIS!

I can't wait to see these lovely lads again soon (they are headlining the US this winter)! 

I mean, come ON! Could they be more adorable, talented and just all around get guys. Again, so much love. The Maccabees have to be one of the nicest bands I have had the pleasure to start to get to know. 

social media whore

You should follow me (or lurk, whatever you fancy most) on one of my various social media outlets. It's tons of fun (when I do update). And since I have the ENTIRE weekend off, expect A LOT of updates and random posts. Especially on here. 

instagram

facebook page

tumblr

Peace for now, back to nonstop cleaning and organizing my life. 

we tell ourselves stories in order to live

Recently, I just finished the David Foster Wallace biography 'Every Love Story Is a Ghost Story', and let me tell you, I couldn't put it down. It's written beautifully and stays with you well after you have finished reading it. I was slightly alarmed how much identified with a lot of DFW's problems. I highly recommend it if you are a fan of David Foster Wallace or even if you haven't read his work before, it's still a brilliant read on the human psyche. 

Now, I am re-reading 'Play It As It Lays' by Joan Didion. I forgot how AMAZING this book is and I am falling in love Didion all over again. 

So between DFW and Joan Didion, I am have a lot of re-reading and general reading to do. Thanks to having no life outside of work, work and more work. My spare time has been spent reading. 

The more I've been reading as a form of relaxation, the more I've been contemplating going back to LA to relax. I know staying at the Chateau Marmont is incredibly pretentious and/or shows signs that you are having a nervous breakdown or coming out of rehab but every since I spent an evening there with my mates for my birthday last year, the more I've been wanting to go back and proper stay there for a few days after the holidays, maybe do some writing, get inspired again...goodness, just escape for a little bit. Escape people, my racing mind, etc. 

Come summer 2013, I still want to do my epic road trip down the west coast and write and photograph my little heart out. 

A dreamer can dream can't she? 

keep it grunge

Went to a friend's art showing recently, despite being sick, I was able to somehow not look deathly ill going out. 

beanie - H&M

sweater dress - H&M

tights - Target

boots - Aldo 

locket necklace - urban outfitters

into darkness

!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That's all. 

contravene loyal ties

ph. Erez Avissar

Definitely feeling this new Crystal Castles album. 

And this video for 'the plague' is probably a GREAT representation of what the inside of my mind looks like or at least how I feel a lot of the times. Sometimes you just have to fucking lose it. Scream it out. The more you try to hold it together, hold it all in, put a band-aide over your problems and call it good, you are eventually going to break. No one can keep it together all the time and I've been learning this the hard way. I've been learning that sometimes you DO have to reach out to people, they may not reach back the way you want them to or tell you things you want to hear or in the way you want to hear it but also you can't do it all alone. Yet there has to be this balance, you can't solely depend on other people for this comfort, peace of mind, validation, whatever it may be you are looking for, you also have to do it for yourself and realize for yourself that things can get better and sometimes it's okay to cry and explode. We are only human after all, even though we'd like to think otherwise. 

I love how this lyrics is continually repeated. 

"I am the plague"

Everyone does it to themselves at some point. Blame it all on themselves. They are the plague, they are the reason all of this is happening, if they weren't in the equation things would be better for everyone. 

don't call this a comeback (no, really don't)

I've been neglecting this blog for too long. My life went from kind of weird, kind of crazy to insanity in just a matter of a couple months. I don't even think insane can even begin to describe my life at the moment or since I've last posted on here. I feel like a complete different person. As if I weren't neurotic enough before, I am Woody Allen on crack. Yes, Woody Allen on crack, which makes me a fucking annoying person to be around. Let's see I've become cafe manager at B&N and that's been interesting and since that wasn't enough, let's throw the fact I thought it would be a good idea to get a second job at Sephora clocking me in anywhere from 45 hours a week to 60. And somehow fitting in shooting? Shooting stuff that I haven't posted...going through and editing photos from back in AUGUST. 

What is sleep and what is a weekend? And when I finally had 3 days off IN A ROW from BOTH jobs, that was shot to shit and I did fuck all, to which I am now paying for severely. Scrambling to catch up on things during times I should try to catch an hour or two of sleep so I don't lose what's left of my mind. I mean, I really shouldn't complain though, right? I am employed, I have a roof over my head, I am living comfortably, I am just being another ungrateful American. But hell if I am not tired and can't wait to return to somewhat of a normal state of mind after the holidays. At least everything won't seem SO intense and SO dramatic. I go from one end of the emotional spectrum to the next in 10 seconds, no, 5 seconds or less. Basically, I am what some people may call an emotional wreck, a ticking time bomb. I've done a good job at neglecting my family members, my friends or at least the two that I had and/or generally just pissing off everyone because you never know what mood I am going to be in that day. Feels SO different from summer where everything was so chill, even fall was rather chill...I am hoping that it's just the holidays and the workload I've taken on and things will make some sort of sense soon. I would like to unpack my room just to pack back up in May again. I would like to have a social life. I would like to sleep and not be so erratic. Maybe actually email my friends back in a sensibly amount of time and not 2 months later. There is always that catch 22. If you email too long after the fact you're an asshole, if you don't email at all you're an even bigger asshole. Anyways, this is my major rant post. I haven't done one of these for a while. I hope to do more of them, typos, grammatical errors and ALL! 

Hopefully, on my downtime that I should be using to sleep, I shall get my photos organized to post here. And get back to a semi-regular posting schedule. I have missed posting on here and wonder if anyone still checks to see if there is an update. 

Until next time, dig on this song I can't stop listening to at the moment by Cat Power. I mean I could kick myself for getting into her new album so late and missing her and my mates X-Ray Eyeballs play in Chicago.

"I feel tired
Awake all night
Head so heavy like a wastebasket
I feel choke emotionally broke
In the gutter and I'm still lookin down
I feel alone I want out I want on my own
I want everything I own I find letters pictures
Memories of what you can't seem to let go"